Through out my most recent years I developed severe anxiety. Struggling everyday not having control of my own mind.
I am married and cannot have human kids but took a love and passion in rescuing Chihuahua’s. I joined a rescue group 15 years ago and I spent much of my time fostering, adopting and of course adding to my Chihuahua family.
I have always suffered from anxiety, but about 5 years ago the anxiety grow much bigger and intense as such that I would end up in the hospital.
I feared traveling on my own, social gatherings, the weather, my health… all thoughts were out of my control.
I met a friend through the rescue who is a wonderful photographer. I was fascinated with her camera and watching her gave me a sense of security. I thought ” Hide behind a camera creating precious memories and socializing. Yup, I can do that”. I went out bought myself a camera and have been in love with photography ever since. Somehow that was not enough. Hiding behind a camera was not helping my anxiety. I needed to find something that helped with my anxiety. I decided to go on a day retreat with people I didn’t know. The day of the retreat my anxiety was so high, I almost didn’t go. But, to my surprise I forced myself out the door. While at the retreat the instructor talked a lot about how art is the best form of relaxation.
It is a source of relaxation and self expression. When you are able to focus on your materials and imagination, you are able to give your brain a break from daily thoughts. The effect is similar to meditation in that painting allows you to center yourself and pay more attention to what is happening in the moment, right in front of you.
Painting has also been proven to increase dopamine in the brain, which produces the same happy feelings that we encounter when we fall in love.
I went home from the retreat and made a promise to myself… *I will find art that I enjoy to help me heal* I found fluid painting. This form of abstract art is beautiful and endless. Every piece created is unique; no two will ever look identical! I fell in love with creating abstract art, so much that I started my own business.
I Lee McWilliams create art for others within the colors of choice; why do I do it… because it helps with my mental disorder and in return it makes others happy with the art they have chosen to display in their place of comfort.
I want to thank you for enjoying my art and God Bless